Monday, May 20, 2013

immense bravery

Yesterday was probably the height of the courageous days in my life. It's amazing how much strength it takes to hide emotions inside, and yet how much more interesting that humans even have the ability to behave in ways contrary to how things really are inside.

And yet, there comes a time where one too needs to realize that you are worth fighting for. That you are worth something. That you would probably still love and give on command, but at the same time you have to stop hurting yourself with hopeful expectation...or at least control the extent of the damage it's creating.

I was a brave girl yesterday. And even though I still feel like crap, and I really did wish for a better outcome, it's something to be very proud of.