|Each challenge has brought with it change.|
Going through a season of constant changes...
This time, it was my hair colour.
I saw Surgeonman earlier this week about the surgery reschedule, and I'll be seeing Orthoman in a couple of hours as I once again prep to reschedule the jaw surgery. Orthoman just needs to tell me everything is still in good order and nothing has messed up (after all, it's now been 3 months since I was supposed to have my surgery). I really hope the surgery happens this time...and that nothing screws it up - no problems with the anesthetist, no blood problems, no insurance issues...PLEASE - I've been waiting so long. Interestingly, in the in-between of the reschedule, I've had days where my jaw has started acting funny too... perhaps it has been due to the peaked levels of stress in my life. I've somehow had days where I've had a tightness in my jaw...almost like an ache...which I hope will be gone forever once my jaw is set aright. Not to mention how much I hate carrying around all this weight that I purposefully put on for the surgery! It's honestly disgusting, and I can't fit into any of my jeans anymore! :(((
I've decided that once the surgery is over, I'm going to get rid of all this stupid weight, take up my pilates/yoga classes, as well as the modeling classes I've been loooong overdue to attend, get back on my German classes again...and just start to try living life happy again. It's been almost two years I've been carrying around a heavy burden of a broken heart and emotional reclusiveness. Life wasn't meant to be lived like this. I really can't wait for all this to be over.