Saturday, August 30, 2014

Day 72: Just walking through life.

I can't quite chew yet, but I've been pretty much eating anything. My jaws are still pretty tight and I can barely open more than one finger wide.... but hopefully with daily jaw exercises, things will loosen up and get better. My lip has been stinging quite a bit recently - especially when I am worked up about something and speak in an upset/angry tone. I guess it's stimulation that affects the nerves.

Yesterday, I felt as if something was stuck at the back of one of my lower molars (or that it was some gross plaque that was building up) so I decided to be a little more thorough with brushing around that area... and I don't know what I did, but when I rinsed my mouth out, I found that I had a considerable amount of blood in my mouth. It took me quite a few mouth rinses and it freaked me out quite a bit because the water kept running out a copper blood-stained colour, but I think it clotted up soon after. But gosh! Not fun.

Been in a very much reflective mood recently. The stress of work and life has been getting to me, and it's not very healthy. Part of me feels like I've lost myself somewhere these past five years - with entering the business, losing one of my best friends, the big break up, depression, surgeries, issues with work... it's just been a bit too much for me I think.

Part of me is just so tired of life right now. Overwhelmed, maybe.
It just feels like I've lost a big part of myself for a long time and I don't really know where I am at or who I am/want to be. It's like I just need a breath of fresh air of life, or a holiday by myself or something.

4 comments:

  1. Take it easy while brushing :-). Try to relax and enjoy the journey. I've been telling myself that lately as well (my personal situation - working very hard at the job + looking to buy property...) and it has been helpful. When Imake sure I am enjoying the journey, everything is more bearable and less burdensome :-).

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    1. Thanks for your encouragement Sean. Yeah, it's about being patient with the process I suppose. I guess it's tough sometimes because it's not just a physical journey. Hanging in there. You too!

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  2. Hi, can I PM you for more orthognathic surgery questions, please !_!

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    1. Hey girl, sure, are you on Facebook? You can find me there at Claire Ariela and PM me.

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